Waiting

My entire house is in disarray. Not that it is in order most of the time. With a 5 1/2 year old autistic kid, it would be hard to have anything stay in one place for too long.
The problem is.. I have begun nesting. At least I think it's nesting. It started earlier this pregnancy. I have been baking and sewing and generally not leaving the house, and I want everything put away and neat and nice... and well, that doesn't happen in my house.

While shuffling our stuff about the house we have unearthed an entire box of cassette tapes. Most of them are mine circa 1990, when my best girlfriends made me mixed tapes to take off to college. Most other people stayed pretty close to home for school. I headed north from the sandy beaches of Surf City and went to Berkeley, and honestly I have never been back "home" for longer than 3 weeks in a row. ANywhooooo my girlfriends made me all of these great tapes with songs like Total Eclipse of the Heart Great tapes with songs that are on the verge of coming back into style just like those nasty 'pumps' with the criss-cross front that were so unattractive the first time.

The Real Reason I can't have any downtime

I am supposed to be cleaning out our office in anticipation of our daughter's birth..which is now less than 90 days away. Instead I got on the computer to send an email to a girlfriend of mine who has moved all the way to Texas.

Instead of just writing the email and quickly getting back to work I cruise around the internet, somehow getting to The Ladders website which is a job search website catering to those who either want to make over $100k, or normally do and who, as they are job hunting, don't want to sift through 600 lower positions for which they are over-qualified. I think it's a great idea. Anywhoo that led me to the blog of the founder of that Company Marc Cenedella. And after reading more than one entry of his blog I randomly found an entry that discusses the difference between American emoticons and those of the Japanese. I don't even use emoticons very often.

SO now of course I am documenting my unimportant mini-drama here on my own blog.. for what purpose?
I really, really don't want to clean out this room right now.

(-_^) wink

Desiderata

I have always loved this bit of prose, and wanted to find out more about its author etc. Once I started looking it turns out that I have a framed copy of the prose that was distributed with the attribution "Old St. Paul's Church, Baltimore A.C. 1692."
The words were actually written by Max Ehrmann, a poet and lawyer from Terre Haute, Indiana, who lived from 1872 to 1945.
with thanks to Mr. Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.


With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.